2 January 2012, 6:58 pm
I am 13 I made this account today to get help. I am so hurt. I was that one perfect child. Everyone but me has the perfect family all my cousins and relatives live normal happy days. It all started 6 monthes ago when we moved. I had to go to a new school which was much harder for me I became a very socially akward person and only knew my cousin who was going to be moving during winter vacation to southern california (I moved from Merced CA to Selinas CA). I was kind of Ignored by my Cousin at school but she was super nice to me and alright after school. My grades fell for the Waldorf school was something I was not used to and it was just awful, I used to be a 3.875 GPA student and now im a 3.-- something Its just painful. I have no friends and am a very clingy lonly person. I started to gain a supposed attitude problem along with much extra weight. MY parents now disrespect me for not being sporty and as A+ as my cousin and it hurts to try and live up to someone elses standards. I Cousins grandparents are alive but both of mine are dead and such so shes always there! My Attitude problem is just that I talk back and cry a lot I cry because I feel like I didnt do anything to deserve this. I want to be this quit good smart sporty skinny popular chld I really do I know its in me but where! I want to be like my cousin but I tend to run my mouth if I dont agree with something she just does it no matter what like a slave and goes into her room. I want to be good and loved and I want to be good for my parents! My mom is unhappy because she is unemployed and also has some issues she had her ovaries removed cant find a job she also has gained 40 pounds and so on she is miserable. It just is not fair the way things are. So things are hard and so on but it gets harder the only friend I had was my cousin Im 13 shes 12 but were both eight graders and she was fighting with me right before her move to socal so now I am very upset what will I do when school starts for me on Wedensday! I was bawling because she left me on bad terms and im so alone now. I also feel sad because my house is so dead and I am so lonely since she left. I just dont know what to say! She will always have a house full of life she has a younger sister wonderful non abusive like mine (verbally) parents, netflix, and two cats, oh and a parakeet to keep her company and to keep her happy. I have no on honestly she was my only family the only thing I do have is my puppy dog who my parents want to give away because of his shedding and they act like shes a huge burden when they bought her for me and I potty trained her and invested so much time and money into this! I just feel so bullied into everything I do they make me feel like an animal! they tell me that If I give the puppy away there wont be as much tention but I know its not true! Lastly I am unhappy because my cousin has moved across state far south and I really like her she was my greatest friend! I cant believe she left fighting! she wont even talk to me on the phone she moved on the 27th and I really am sad! I just call her and FB her and SKype her and so on shes just always telling me she doesnt want to talk to me and it hurts how can she avoid me like this! Its even worse because I will be going to her house in 11 days (we bought a plane ticket already its fosho already) and I would not ven know what to say to her it would be so akward! Im just in so much hurt. I am not a troll! and I feel like a pussy for resorting to this so dont hate on me. :( Im sorry for spelling mistakes im using my phone. I feel like this anchor that is pulling down everyone around me or something that is smothering the people I love and care for and everything around me! My mom is yelling at the dog right now because she had an accident (we forgot to open the doggy door) I Want to be a good boy I want to be that perfect american family. and dont tell me to go into foster care or tell an adult or go to a shrink because I am a Iranian and that shit is not accepted in my culture. Thank you very much :)! READ MY ENTIRE QUESTION! My Cousin is big in this because she is my only close relative and we both lived (she moved during winter break) In the same townhouse complex I am town house 104 and she was 15 we go to the same school, tutor, after school, and were always together.... Read More »
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